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Post by Sosa on May 27, 2006 0:45:38 GMT -5
Thanks. I wasn't fishing for a pity thread, but your words mean a lot right now. To be honest with you guys, I don't have anywhere else to go. The only consideration I've made was the possibility of forming a new social event shell with an emphisis on newer players and having fun (I'd like to think my experience can count towards helping someone,) but as it stands, I have neither the time nor inclination to do any such thing. In the end, through the numerous shell breaks I've been through, my friends are splintered into different groups all over the map, and this is the first place I've found in a very long time that "felt like home." I love the orphans, and I don't really plan on leaving if it can be helped, but I need to figure out what it is that I'm missing.
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Post by Sosa on May 26, 2006 18:07:12 GMT -5
I'm not sure how to say this... and as any of you who know me well can vouch, I tend to weave around in little circles when I'm trying to get straight to the point. I was not "hiding" my intent to do anything, however in light of new events, my thoughts and feelings on FFXI are changing... and I'm not sure where I'm going to end up at this point.
I'm going to try to say this as directly as I can.
When I first quit this game, I left because the friends I cared about had moved on to other things. My trust in several people I truly cared for had been shattered, and I didn't know how to start over.
When I came back, Kaifu was among one of the only people from my "older days" that welcomed me back with open arms. Slowly, others who remembered me stepped forward, and I found a small circle of friends.
I have a lot of goals left to accomplish, and I don't feel like my time in this game is over yet... but recently, I have really begun to feel the 'anonymity' of playing this game. The end-game is not for me. I've been a member for six months, and I've made half-hearted bids, but I don't think I've spent a single point since I've been here.
I stay, because I have a set of goals I want to reach. I want to see my friends achieve their goals. And for the time being, I do not believe that HNM are a part of those goals.
I love the orphans, but I'm no longer sure that my place belongs here... it's honestly not that I have the desire to leave (I really don't want to, because I love it here) but that I feel like I've lost my reason for playing while I'm here. I don't expect that to make a lot of sense, but that's the way I feel right this moment. I don't have anywhere else to go... and I don't think I'd be happy anywhere else...
So the point, which I have successfully eluded, is that I'm stuck in a catch 22. At some point in the future, I will need to make a choice on which set of goals I which to follow. I need to do a little soul-searching... I cannot honestly tell you what my decision is at this point, but regardless, I have a level of respect and fondness for virtually every member of this family that I have not experienced with any other group of people. No matter what happens, I want to write this, so I can say I had the opportunitity to at least express what this group of people means to me - no matter what happens.
/emo off
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Post by Sosa on May 25, 2006 9:46:42 GMT -5
This isn't going to happen for quite awhile, but I wanted to give as much advanced notice as possible...
I will be picking up and moving all the way across the country (at least there's not a 3,500 stretch of ocean this time) to Tampa, Florida on approximately the 6th or 7th of July. It's probable I will lose internet service a week or more in advance of the move, and will probably not have a service back up until my second week there.
So, I could possibly be out of game (and contact) for about a month. I have absolutely no intention of quitting the game at this point, I'll definately be coming back.
As I get more details, I'll post them here.
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AFFFXI
May 24, 2006 7:15:10 GMT -5
Post by Sosa on May 24, 2006 7:15:10 GMT -5
What about using your character to run an extensive gil laundering service, thus making millions and pocketing the change? >.>
Have fun while you're there, Shal! We'll look forward to seeing you back. ^^
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Post by Sosa on May 24, 2006 7:25:37 GMT -5
Sad thing is, endgame charactor or not... he'll probably just transport the gil to another char and start over, or sell it.
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Post by Sosa on Jun 2, 2006 23:17:20 GMT -5
Har har, my country is level 10!
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Post by Sosa on May 29, 2006 23:42:15 GMT -5
Half those page views are mine, I refreshed the page a bunch of times... thought about signing up using your link, but noticed it wouldn't have transferred since I already gave you the +1, and decided to wait until tommorrow.
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Post by Sosa on May 28, 2006 17:30:23 GMT -5
Teh clicked. Interesting. Reminds me of a web-based conquest game I once helped develop a very long time ago...
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Post by Sosa on May 30, 2006 7:52:58 GMT -5
If he doesnt, I will... but out of respect for our fearless leader, I will allow him the opportunity to post first... That about sums up my experience, too. Not to say all women are crazy. At least not all the time...
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Post by Sosa on May 25, 2006 9:26:48 GMT -5
Is this a list exclusively for domestic beers?... I find it kind of funny that almost every one of them listed above is domestic... I can't drink American beer. It tastes like watered down piss. Samual Adams is the one and only beer made in the US I've been able to drink so far... but you haven't tried Belgian beer. Try out Chimay (Shim-ae) sometime, it's a dark Belgian brew I got hooked on while overseas. A little expensive since it's import, but it's nice to try it out...
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AFK
May 20, 2006 22:36:45 GMT -5
Post by Sosa on May 20, 2006 22:36:45 GMT -5
Is that some kind of obscure sexual innuendo for spending time at the bar on Pleasure Island in Disney World? :x
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Post by Sosa on May 21, 2006 8:29:53 GMT -5
I never had the pleasure of meeting both of you, but any Orphan is a friend of mine. I'm deeply sorry to hear about the trouble you're both going through right now, my heart goes out to you and I wish you the best as you go through these difficult circumstances together. I'm looking forward to meeting you guys when you get back, so don't disappoint us!
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Viro...
May 10, 2006 16:42:17 GMT -5
Post by Sosa on May 10, 2006 16:42:17 GMT -5
You get a message saying that the content hasn't been installed on the system. Tried it with my PS2 (running out of the box copy, no CoP) when trying to log into Molvopolis once.
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LARP
May 18, 2006 23:12:01 GMT -5
Post by Sosa on May 18, 2006 23:12:01 GMT -5
<-- Gets it... lol
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LARP
May 10, 2006 16:39:49 GMT -5
Post by Sosa on May 10, 2006 16:39:49 GMT -5
That looks like it would be a hell of a lot of fun, if it didn't make me feel like a complete tool for the rest of my life having done it. /sigh
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