My Resignation (cut and pasted from SH section)

[BS]

I suppose I'm just afraid of what you all will think and say about me when I leave. *drops a bombshell*. Whether or not you will ask me for help or a tele when you need it (which I will always gladly give to you if I'm not in the middle of EXP or an event), or whether you will call me a backstabber. And no I haven't been planning this, but it has just come to a head for me at this moment.

I've been planning to stay with EO after Flyingsnow this LS quit for 2 main reasons. 1) I made a promise to help out this LS and all of my dear friends in it a long time ago when I joined and when I took the position as SH. 2) this is my family, and the thought of not being in a LS with people like Corran and Beren kills me inside. That's not to cheapen any of the rest of you, but Corran and Beren and I have known each other since before ffxi. They're both very near and dear to me. And the rest of EO is my family. I've had tiffs with you guys, but i've always been there to talk it out with you later, and always will be here to talk it out with you. Good times or bad, in EO or not. I'm still your brother dammit, whether you like it or not.

so what could make me leave my family if I feel so strongly about it? Dont' think I'm a hypocrite for leaving, but there's one thing that would make me do it. I can't play this game while not being in the same LS as my wife any longer. Sure it will hurt not being in EO, sure the game will not be the same for me. But I tried not being with my wife now for about a month, and it hurts me much more deeply than any of you can understand, and much more deeply than I've let any of you know. You are all my family, but I love my wife more deeply than anyone else on this planet. I love her more than I love myself (not just saying that, and is tearing up a little IRL).

So I guess I'm saying "what could make me leave the place that means the world to me? the person who means more than the world." The game's not the same without her.

I'm not asking any of you to understand, or to not be upset. I expect you to be upset, and I am not going to be surprised if you are angry with me


there's still time for one more bombshell. You all have to know that I'm joining KoS. I'm telling you all this straight up front, because you all, as my close friends, deserve to know everything. No I didn't "fall for aerya's lies." I never thought this LS has been stealing money off the top. No he hasn't been whispering dissention into my ear, and if he had i would have been raising red flags in the SH section weeks ago. I truly think that aerya felt attacked and that's why he left. The confusion over what happened with the october-december HNM gil was something that he was quick to jump to conclusions on because he was upset, instead of him doing the right thing and researching what happened to that gil in all the old posts. Yet then the name calling started, and the mistrust bred more mistrust, and there you have it. Sure people were wrong on some sides, but in ffxi-land people seem to be too proud to say I'm sorry, when "I'm sorry" is the only thing that will let others know you truly care.

So that being said I'm sorry for leaving my friends and family when they so desperately need me. And I'm sorry for joining KoS, but I can't figure out what else to do. A couple more months of not being with snow and I would quit ffxi altogether, i'm sure of it.

You need to know why I'm joining KoS. I know it's going to upset you all even more and I'm beating myself up for doing it, because I don't want to hurt any of you. But, I told tempus a while ago, the only reason that I could see for leaving EO was if my wife joined another LS. Snow has had a KoS pearl for months now. Back when it was still social and we used it as a sort of CoP linkshell, along with SuiGeneris. When she had dropped her pearls to EO, she moved to SuiGeneris full time, and when people started hopping into KoS again, she would chill with them and chat on it. Then Aerya bumped it into HNM land. Now she's in the mix of it all, and I'll be there with her, just so we can play together again. We were talking today, and were both so pissed off with the "i think this, i'm leaving, blah blah bullshit" of HNM shells. We fucking hate it. If we could find an HNM that did good events and allowed social Linkshells, we'd join it, and only put it on for events, and wear our special married person's shell "SuiGeneris" all the time. Who knows, maybe we'll be doing that soon. I can't tell you how much KoS may piss me off, so I may be in SuiGeneris ALOT.

Will dealing with end game newbs piss me off? Yes. Will the noobs dying on lots of stuff piss me off even more? yes. You can see leaving EO here doesn't ring too well in my head, but in my heart it's all I can do not to quit this game if I can't play with snow.


So there it all is. Just know that I'm here for all of you to talk, lend an ear, hell I'll even help on events if you desperately need a whm as a "friend of EO" if you'll have me. Am I in another shell? Yes, but ignore it because you can and always will be able to trust me. For anything at all. And just know that a little piece of myself is dying here as I quit EO. I've tried to leave as gracefully as possible. I have 192 unused points, alot of people I still care about, and almost a full month of trying to make "ffxi-w/out flyingsnow" work. You all deserved this and much more so you can know the simple fact that I really do care.

So there you have it. I'll drop my EO pearls now, cry a little bit, and then pray to god you guys send me /tells every once in a while so we can find excuses to hang out and help each other in game. I won't delete my forums account because I will drop in and chat with all you forum trolls also. Just know that I love EO and always will, and if you need anything, ANYTHING please ask... i want the excuse to help and hang out with you at any chance I can get.

Much love,
Brokensword


/em cries a lil.

[Ruuk]

brokensword said:

But I tried not being with my wife now for about a month, and it hurts me much more deeply than any of you can understand, and much more deeply than I've let any of you know. You are all my family, but I love my wife more deeply than anyone else on this planet. I love her more than I love myself (not just saying that, and is tearing up a little IRL).

I can't relate nor can I imagine how badly this hurts. Do what you must, bro. You have my love and respect, the both of you. I'll definitely miss you dude but this isn't goodbye, just a cya soon.

[Beren]

/salute

We've spoken. You hold the same place in my heart, brother. Its not the end of our r/l world.

[Damfool]

BS, really i think you should of been did this man, a wife is your life man and all thou you were one of my best homie in the game everyone would/should do the same thing. gl man and i tell your ass when im going skill always need a whm for that.lol

[alanthiana]

Upset, yes...angry, no.

Since the first time we met in Ghelbsa, I don't think I ever saw you without Snowy. I'm surprised this hadn't come sooner...it was strange without both of you together. I wouldn't have been able to do it, and I respect you for it. You gave it a good amount of time, not just giving up the first week she left. Thank you.

And btw...

/tell Brokensword omg, you have to come to Limbus!! I don't wanna be the whm! =p

[BS]

i would love to do limbus with y'all still. that would thrill me to no end!

[chaucer]

u will always be my RL friend ..and as that goes any decision u make, I will support and not judge.

Good luck to u...we've be through a lot in EO...Send tell anytime if u wanna party or hang out.

We'll get together soon for another BBQ...maybe after Carrie and Brian get back from Ireland.

[Krazi]

I'll talk to you ingame.!

[shalyn]

I don't know what happened with snow and why she isn't in EO anymore if she can handle another HNM, but that isn't my business. I only think about it because it's hard to lose such a dedicated member...to that linkshell especially. Yes I'm sad, and yes I'm angry.. but you do what you have to to make the game more enjoyable, I support you 100%. You always have a home in EO, and if you ever need me, I'll be there for you.

[Markus]

Best of luck to you BS. I completely understand your reasoning for leaving. I appreciate all you have done for this LS, you were an excellent leader.

[Sosa]

You will be greatly missed, but from what I see with most of our members, they have an understanding that just because life throws something at you that seperates friends and family does not mean that it has to be the end of that friendship.

BS, I always did and will continue to have great respect for you and the kindness and dedication you showed towards the other members, and I wish both you and your wife the best. Don't be a stranger.

[corran]

Good luck.

[Conina]

/bow Brokensword and Flyingsnow.