Post by zekk on Apr 21, 2005 13:29:11 GMT -5
Hey guys. Lemme take a moment to be real and straight up with you all..... only 2 or 3 of you know this, but at the end of this month, i'm gone for a little while.
I've known this before Krazi thought of qutting, but i didn't want to say anything because it was his time to shine.
April 30th is my last day in FFXI for the time being. Too much real life stuff has occured and this game is getting in the way. In reality, i'm using this game as an excuse not to do stuff, so i gotta kill the source of the game (And shred my credit card!! MWAHAHAHAHA) and cancel my ID.
Another reason i'm leaving for a lil while is because I make too many plans to help people with stuff. Naturally, i'm very outgoing and like to see others happy, (curse me) so i fill my hands whenever someone asks for help with something. To make it worse, a select few in that bunch have taken it the wrong way, and when I have to hold off helping them, they got mad at me.
{Inside, and out the LS this has happened, so if i'm gone-> i can't help -> u can't be mad.}
List of stuff I have to do...
1) Get my GED.
I got screwed out of graduating high school because I was diagnosed with cancer, and my principal was a prick, and now this month i want to do it.
(please don't turn this into a "zomfg u got cancer!!111" thread.. I've heard enough: in remission, i'm perfectly fine. Any questions, send me a private message)
2) Work out everyday.
Because of the effects of cancer, I wasn't able to do anything for a year....which slowly became a habit. When ur not active for that long, u know what happens.....
3) Get my life back.
Before I got sick, i was VERY active. Played sports in high school, was constantly out the house, could bench 285lbs, worked a part time job (38 hours a week though.....go figure) and was getting A's (when i wanted to) in high school. Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I was pretty sharp.
Now......ugh.. I'm BARELY active, I can't run down the block without getting tired, I can only bench 200, my part time job only runs 20 hours, and my high school knowledge has slipped from my mind.
So yes, needless to say, I'm in way over my head. I dunno how to fix this that easily... but I'll think of something, I always do. Fix or make worse, its a chance i'm willing to take.
4) read my devotional bible everyday.
It seems petty, but on some real, its something I gotta do. I'm not ready to real the REAL bible yet, so i wanna get in little practice sessions. I'll get out of the topic of religion and merge it into...
4-Real) Getting into the habit of daily things. I wanna have a daily cycle of stuff I need to do.
I was talking to Juele the other night, and as active as she is, she always has the time and money do what she WANTS to be, by doing what she NEEDS to do.
She said some words that grabbed me by the crotch with a vice grip.....with nails attached to it.. it hurts!!
(i can't begin to tell u how much of an understatement "it hurts!!" is)
Me and her had a similar past... done bad stuff when we were younger, so we can relate to eachother in any and all topics.
The words she said were "because of the stuff i did in my past, i feel that there are things i NEED to do because I want to enjoy my life." (not quote for quote, but thats the general idea)
Because of that, I feel that if i just get off my lazy tail, I'll do perfectly fine. So Juele, Thank you
I'm not sure when I'm coming back. I thought only a month, but this is a whole lot to do.... Thing i'm afraid of is that If i like the new anti FFXI life, i won't return.
Krazi said it the best, I love u guys. Even Kristallis whom WE ALL KNOW, that we have some conflict between us. {no i'm not apologizing for saying that.. think carefully, WHO DOESN'T KNOW after Tempus mistelled it in LS chat}
Just yesterday, i logged in and sat in my mog house talking with u guys for a little while. Of course, I was on MSN too, but in what LS can a guy do that?
What LS can gather up a team in 10 minutes for coffer raids, AND HAVE FUN DOING EM!
What LS can a guy shout of "SHABA!" then have everyone start singing along!? TELL ME!!!!!
There is no other LS, and joining this LS was my turning point in FFXI. That's why I hesitated to leave, but it's time to better my life.
I wish u all the best and If u guys TRUELY need me for something FFXI related............well, you have my moral support... was about to type in "i'd log in as spiffy and help" but no... gotta get away from this game for a little while.
I won't be on the computer much while i'm away. but incase i happen to show up, my info...
AIM - ImNotZekk
MSN - Zekstradamus@hotmail.com
E-mail - Zekky85@gmail.com
Fear the green,
Fear the fellowship,
Fear the family. ~Edeas Orphans
<3 I'll see ya'll in game for the next 9 days.
~Chris *Zekk*
I've known this before Krazi thought of qutting, but i didn't want to say anything because it was his time to shine.
April 30th is my last day in FFXI for the time being. Too much real life stuff has occured and this game is getting in the way. In reality, i'm using this game as an excuse not to do stuff, so i gotta kill the source of the game (And shred my credit card!! MWAHAHAHAHA) and cancel my ID.
Another reason i'm leaving for a lil while is because I make too many plans to help people with stuff. Naturally, i'm very outgoing and like to see others happy, (curse me) so i fill my hands whenever someone asks for help with something. To make it worse, a select few in that bunch have taken it the wrong way, and when I have to hold off helping them, they got mad at me.
{Inside, and out the LS this has happened, so if i'm gone-> i can't help -> u can't be mad.}
List of stuff I have to do...
1) Get my GED.
I got screwed out of graduating high school because I was diagnosed with cancer, and my principal was a prick, and now this month i want to do it.
(please don't turn this into a "zomfg u got cancer!!111" thread.. I've heard enough: in remission, i'm perfectly fine. Any questions, send me a private message)
2) Work out everyday.
Because of the effects of cancer, I wasn't able to do anything for a year....which slowly became a habit. When ur not active for that long, u know what happens.....
3) Get my life back.
Before I got sick, i was VERY active. Played sports in high school, was constantly out the house, could bench 285lbs, worked a part time job (38 hours a week though.....go figure) and was getting A's (when i wanted to) in high school. Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I was pretty sharp.
Now......ugh.. I'm BARELY active, I can't run down the block without getting tired, I can only bench 200, my part time job only runs 20 hours, and my high school knowledge has slipped from my mind.
So yes, needless to say, I'm in way over my head. I dunno how to fix this that easily... but I'll think of something, I always do. Fix or make worse, its a chance i'm willing to take.
4) read my devotional bible everyday.
It seems petty, but on some real, its something I gotta do. I'm not ready to real the REAL bible yet, so i wanna get in little practice sessions. I'll get out of the topic of religion and merge it into...
4-Real) Getting into the habit of daily things. I wanna have a daily cycle of stuff I need to do.
I was talking to Juele the other night, and as active as she is, she always has the time and money do what she WANTS to be, by doing what she NEEDS to do.
She said some words that grabbed me by the crotch with a vice grip.....with nails attached to it.. it hurts!!
(i can't begin to tell u how much of an understatement "it hurts!!" is)
Me and her had a similar past... done bad stuff when we were younger, so we can relate to eachother in any and all topics.
The words she said were "because of the stuff i did in my past, i feel that there are things i NEED to do because I want to enjoy my life." (not quote for quote, but thats the general idea)
Because of that, I feel that if i just get off my lazy tail, I'll do perfectly fine. So Juele, Thank you
I'm not sure when I'm coming back. I thought only a month, but this is a whole lot to do.... Thing i'm afraid of is that If i like the new anti FFXI life, i won't return.
Krazi said it the best, I love u guys. Even Kristallis whom WE ALL KNOW, that we have some conflict between us. {no i'm not apologizing for saying that.. think carefully, WHO DOESN'T KNOW after Tempus mistelled it in LS chat}
Just yesterday, i logged in and sat in my mog house talking with u guys for a little while. Of course, I was on MSN too, but in what LS can a guy do that?
What LS can gather up a team in 10 minutes for coffer raids, AND HAVE FUN DOING EM!
What LS can a guy shout of "SHABA!" then have everyone start singing along!? TELL ME!!!!!
There is no other LS, and joining this LS was my turning point in FFXI. That's why I hesitated to leave, but it's time to better my life.
I wish u all the best and If u guys TRUELY need me for something FFXI related............well, you have my moral support... was about to type in "i'd log in as spiffy and help" but no... gotta get away from this game for a little while.
I won't be on the computer much while i'm away. but incase i happen to show up, my info...
AIM - ImNotZekk
MSN - Zekstradamus@hotmail.com
E-mail - Zekky85@gmail.com
Fear the green,
Fear the fellowship,
Fear the family. ~Edeas Orphans
<3 I'll see ya'll in game for the next 9 days.
~Chris *Zekk*
![-=[Tork]=- Avatar](http://storage.proboards.com/2483939/avatar/ERaPFXDquVJerYHeijpv.jpg)
cya Zekk
